What it's not about

Everything's settled down a little. It was so muddled up and messy before and it still is except it doesn't include as much pain and confusion like it used too.

Mind Wars.
My heart still tugs at me when i see you. Things just got awkward and i began wondering if you forgot about me. Are you still my close friend or are you just pretending everything's okay now? Although i do agree that things aren't as painful, memories are still freshly scarred.
I wonder if you like them sooo much, you become one of them and you no longer will be the person i knew and loved.
It feels too weird to just smile at you but yet too wrong not to.
Sometimes when i see you, i have to keep reminding myself to never lose composure. So you won't see me break down in front of you. So you won't know I'm hurt. So you won't know how selfish i am. So you can't crack my mind So you can't win the fight I'm already losing. At times like this, are you still oblivious to it all?

I think and hope.
I think I'm finally over you. After all this time, I think I'm cured. I think. I hope. I can't figure you out.

Grr...You leave me blank.
You say something but when i really pay attention to you, you do the opposite. My heart used to do flips for you, because of you but I've trained myself to not like you so it wouldn't be as painful but it's kind of heart considering the fact that I'm constantly thinking of you. Now, my heart doesn't even get as excited as before which is a good thing right? since I'm trying to get over you and all. But then you do the most unexpected thing and wham, I think of you (almost) all the time. Though, I've learned not to trust you as much cause things might change as soon as they came.