ehee. Bride Wars I like!
Friday, February 27, 2009
All those who have a secret raise my hand.
I'm suppose to be studying right now but I can't help the temptation of the Internet. Oh. My. Goodness. Maths is a serious killer who's out to get me. I used to think elementary maths was tough well look what additional maths brought on. I know it's necessary and all but I'd do so much to do E-Maths only. Grr.
Had extra Social Studies Literature class just now. Oh now Ms Anisah worries about the exams. She was rushing to shove as much info as possible but it doesn't really help cause all she does is, on a routine, Notes-Powerpoint-Talk-Copy Notes-End of lesson. And she doesn't even collect the notes.
So yes, the exams are on the way but i haven't really gotten into stress mode yet but I'm sure it'll come a week or two before the exam.
I've got drama tomorrow so i'll be looking forward to that.
Ever gotten that feeling when you want two things at the same time but those things are totally opposite? That's currently my mood mode. All the debate in my head is just so chaotic.
To Marisa:
Get that ankle healed fast. I don't think i have to tell you that since so many others have already done so but I'll just leave this little note for you here.
You and me and the things unsaid.
Crack on this: What does "it" mean in the sentence "What time is it?" ? :D
I fell in love with Paramore
Thursday, February 26, 2009
I Caught Myself.
Song's sung by Haley Williams but since i couldn't find the original version, i guess the guy's one will have to do.
Down to you,
You're pushing and pulling me down to you
But I don't know what I,
Now when I caught myself,
I had to stop myself
From saying something that I should have never thought
Now when I caught myself,
I had to stop myself
From saying something that I should have never thought of you, of you
You're pushing and pulling me down to you,
But I don't know what I want,
No I don't know what I want
You got it, you got it,
Some kind of magic
Hypnotic, hypnotic,
You're leaving me breathless
I hate this, I hate this, You're not the one I believe in
With God as my witness
Now when I caught myself,
I had to stop myself,
From saying something that I should have never thought
Now when I caught myself,
I had to stop myself,
From saying something that I should have never thought of you, of you
You're pushing and pulling me down to you
But I don't know what I want
No I don't know what I want
Don't know what I want
But I know it's not you
Keep pushing and pulling me down,
But I know in my heart it's not you
Now when I caught myself,
I had to stop myself,
From saying something that I should have never thought
Now when I caught myself,
I had to stop myself,
From saying something that I should have never thought of youI knew,
I know in my heart it's not you
I knew, but now I know what I want, I want, I want,
Oh no, I should have never thought
Song's sung by Haley Williams but since i couldn't find the original version, i guess the guy's one will have to do.
Down to you,
You're pushing and pulling me down to you
But I don't know what I,
Now when I caught myself,
I had to stop myself
From saying something that I should have never thought
Now when I caught myself,
I had to stop myself
From saying something that I should have never thought of you, of you
You're pushing and pulling me down to you,
But I don't know what I want,
No I don't know what I want
You got it, you got it,
Some kind of magic
Hypnotic, hypnotic,
You're leaving me breathless
I hate this, I hate this, You're not the one I believe in
With God as my witness
Now when I caught myself,
I had to stop myself,
From saying something that I should have never thought
Now when I caught myself,
I had to stop myself,
From saying something that I should have never thought of you, of you
You're pushing and pulling me down to you
But I don't know what I want
No I don't know what I want
Don't know what I want
But I know it's not you
Keep pushing and pulling me down,
But I know in my heart it's not you
Now when I caught myself,
I had to stop myself,
From saying something that I should have never thought
Now when I caught myself,
I had to stop myself,
From saying something that I should have never thought of youI knew,
I know in my heart it's not you
I knew, but now I know what I want, I want, I want,
Oh no, I should have never thought
I've had time to think things through, but not enough time for you
Everything's settled down a little. It was so muddled up and messy before and it still is except it doesn't include as much pain and confusion like it used too.
Mind Wars.
My heart still tugs at me when i see you. Things just got awkward and i began wondering if you forgot about me. Are you still my close friend or are you just pretending everything's okay now? Although i do agree that things aren't as painful, memories are still freshly scarred.
I wonder if you like them sooo much, you become one of them and you no longer will be the person i knew and loved.
It feels too weird to just smile at you but yet too wrong not to.
Sometimes when i see you, i have to keep reminding myself to never lose composure. So you won't see me break down in front of you. So you won't know I'm hurt. So you won't know how selfish i am. So you can't crack my mind So you can't win the fight I'm already losing. At times like this, are you still oblivious to it all?
I think and hope.
I think I'm finally over you. After all this time, I think I'm cured. I think. I hope. I can't figure you out.
Grr...You leave me blank.
You say something but when i really pay attention to you, you do the opposite. My heart used to do flips for you, because of you but I've trained myself to not like you so it wouldn't be as painful but it's kind of heart considering the fact that I'm constantly thinking of you. Now, my heart doesn't even get as excited as before which is a good thing right? since I'm trying to get over you and all. But then you do the most unexpected thing and wham, I think of you (almost) all the time. Though, I've learned not to trust you as much cause things might change as soon as they came.
Mind Wars.
My heart still tugs at me when i see you. Things just got awkward and i began wondering if you forgot about me. Are you still my close friend or are you just pretending everything's okay now? Although i do agree that things aren't as painful, memories are still freshly scarred.
I wonder if you like them sooo much, you become one of them and you no longer will be the person i knew and loved.
It feels too weird to just smile at you but yet too wrong not to.
Sometimes when i see you, i have to keep reminding myself to never lose composure. So you won't see me break down in front of you. So you won't know I'm hurt. So you won't know how selfish i am. So you can't crack my mind So you can't win the fight I'm already losing. At times like this, are you still oblivious to it all?
I think and hope.
I think I'm finally over you. After all this time, I think I'm cured. I think. I hope. I can't figure you out.
Grr...You leave me blank.
You say something but when i really pay attention to you, you do the opposite. My heart used to do flips for you, because of you but I've trained myself to not like you so it wouldn't be as painful but it's kind of heart considering the fact that I'm constantly thinking of you. Now, my heart doesn't even get as excited as before which is a good thing right? since I'm trying to get over you and all. But then you do the most unexpected thing and wham, I think of you (almost) all the time. Though, I've learned not to trust you as much cause things might change as soon as they came.
Hypo-oh.
Friday, February 13, 2009
I'm feeling bitter towards a friend,Z. I don't like it, but it just so happens that i do. It's wrong to feel this way but is it fair that Z should let me feel like a piece of crumpled used paper?
It wasn't this way before. It was much different but certain things have changed. It isn't Z's fault, not really. It's more like the people Z's mixed with.
What a hypocrite. Going around saying things but doing it anyway. What happened to the promises? After thinking of the same thing over and over again, I'm starting to wander if I'm not liking Z because of what's happened or because of Z itself.
It wasn't this way before. It was much different but certain things have changed. It isn't Z's fault, not really. It's more like the people Z's mixed with.
What a hypocrite. Going around saying things but doing it anyway. What happened to the promises? After thinking of the same thing over and over again, I'm starting to wander if I'm not liking Z because of what's happened or because of Z itself.
Friday, February 6, 2009
I hope you're reading this.
Dear you,
I've had a crush on yous since forever but I've never had the guts to tell you.Because of this, I've tried to snub out my feelings for you. I tried thinking of every bad thing about. I know it's mean but I couldn't think of any other way. It worked until recently, where I've been seeing you in sweet dreams. Ever since then, you've been popping out in my mind.
I curse your sweet name whenever i see you and try to remind myself how I've never liked you. I've been lying to myself and still am but I should be excused 'cause I've always been hopelessly pathetic when it comes to you.You're like an angel. Impossible too ignore and impossible to be with but oh so darn good. I can never look at you in the eye without being nervous 'cause looking into those heavenly eyes taunt me. I'd be reminded how I'm not good enough for you and never will be. It'll just be impossible.
I may seem arrogant to you 'cause I'll try as much as i can to ignore you but the reason behind this is because I'm also trying to avoid that breathless feeling when I look at/talk to/hear you. It feels more than butterflies fluttering. It's more like elephants wearing tutus dancing around in my tummy, my heart, my pulse. I'm trying to avoid the heartbreak that comes with you but avoiding you is heartbreak enough. I'm sorry i like you. I'm sorry for myself for liking you.
There. I've said it.
Dear you,
I've had a crush on yous since forever but I've never had the guts to tell you.Because of this, I've tried to snub out my feelings for you. I tried thinking of every bad thing about. I know it's mean but I couldn't think of any other way. It worked until recently, where I've been seeing you in sweet dreams. Ever since then, you've been popping out in my mind.
I curse your sweet name whenever i see you and try to remind myself how I've never liked you. I've been lying to myself and still am but I should be excused 'cause I've always been hopelessly pathetic when it comes to you.You're like an angel. Impossible too ignore and impossible to be with but oh so darn good. I can never look at you in the eye without being nervous 'cause looking into those heavenly eyes taunt me. I'd be reminded how I'm not good enough for you and never will be. It'll just be impossible.
I may seem arrogant to you 'cause I'll try as much as i can to ignore you but the reason behind this is because I'm also trying to avoid that breathless feeling when I look at/talk to/hear you. It feels more than butterflies fluttering. It's more like elephants wearing tutus dancing around in my tummy, my heart, my pulse. I'm trying to avoid the heartbreak that comes with you but avoiding you is heartbreak enough. I'm sorry i like you. I'm sorry for myself for liking you.
There. I've said it.
