What it's not about

"A Boy named Sue" by Shel Silverstein

Friday, January 23, 2009

It's long but quite interesting. Don't say i didn't warn you. :)

Well, my daddy left home when I was three,
and he didn't leave much to Ma and me,
just this old guitar and a bottle of booze.
Now I don't blame him because he run and hid,
but the meanest thing that he ever did was
before he left he went and named me Sue.

Well, he must have thought it was quite a joke,
and it got lots of laughs from a lot of folks,
it seems I had to fight my whole life through.
Some gal would giggle and I'd get red
and some guy would laugh and I'd bust his head,
I tell you, life ain't easy for a boy named Sue.

Well, I grew up quick and I grew up mean.
My fist got hard and my wits got keen.
Roamed from town to town to hide my shame,
but I made me a vow to the moon and the stars,
I'd search the honky tonks and bars and kill
that man that gave me that awful name.

But it was Gatlinburg in mid July and I had
just hit town and my throat was dry.
I'd thought i'd stop and have myself a brew
.At an old saloon in a street of mud
and at a table dealing stud sat the dirty,
mangy dog that named me Sue.

Well, I knew that snake was my own sweet dad
from a worn-out picture that my mother had
and I knew the scar on his cheek and his evil eye.
He was big and bent and gray and old
and I looked at him and my blood ran cold,
and I said, "My name is Sue. How do you do?
Now you're gonna die." Yeah, that's what I told him.

Well, I hit him right between the eyes and he went down
but to my surprise he came up with a knife
and cut off a piece of my ear. But I busted a chair
right across his teeth. And we crashed through
the wall and into the street kicking and a-gougingin
the mud and the blood and the beer.

I tell you I've fought tougher men but I really can't remember when.
He kicked like a mule and bit like a crocodile.
I heard him laughin' and then I heard him cussin',
he went for his gun and I pulled mine first.
He stood there looking at me and I saw him smile.

And he said, "Son, this world is rough and if
a man's gonna make it, he's gotta be tough
and I knew I wouldn't be there to help you along.
So I gave you that name and I said 'Goodbye'.
I knew you'd have to get tough or die. And it'sthat name that helped to make you strong.

"Yeah, he said, "Now you have just fought one
helluva fight, and I know you hate me and you've
got the right to kill me now and I wouldn't blame you
if you do. But you ought to thank me
before I die for the gravel in your guts and the spit
in your eye because I'm the nut that named you Sue.
"Yeah, what could I do? What could I do?

I got all choked up and I threw down my gun,
called him pa and he called me a son,
and I came away with a different point of view
and I think about him now and then.
Every time I tried, every time I win and if I
ever have a son I think I am gonna name him
Bill or George - anything but Sue.

by Shel Silverstein

Kwang kwang kwaaaaaang!

Yes!
Change me to a yes(wo)man!
I figured this year i should be a little enthusiastic.
For personal reasons.
Although of course, it's gona be a challenge.

I've got a Student Council Camp on the 13th and 14th (overnight) and on the 14th itself, i've got Mass Run ( this school event where everyone has to run around the reservoir ,like it or not ). Then a barbeque after the run.

Tired ah like that. -.-

Monday and tuesday are holidays so i'll probably be cooped up at home, studying/reading since the laptop's crashed. Stup. Typing to you from the school computer.

Gahhhh. I may have to compromise with my promise to be enthusiastic 'cause it definitely won't be as easy as it seems to me right now.

Right, time for I.T. lesson.
Woo. Go enthusiasm. -_____-

Thoughts that fly by

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Mood: Neutral.

Camp was okay and it got better after performance night. Bonded? Nah, not really, not yet. Although some people from 3e3 keep boasting they are. -.-

IT lesson was okay (though Ms Hanis seriously needs to slow down) and i don't regret going. Website making!

I haven't had any drama practises since CCA Display Day meaning i haven't gotten round to seeing who the newbies are. There's drama tomorrow so hopefully, if it's not cancelled, i get to meet them.

What really bothers me how Maths is becoming incredibly woah! , how i'm always tired after a whole day of racking my brain, how i'm not saving enough and how little time i get to be with Marisa. I mean, what's up with that?

I don't understand why some people are being so...unreasonable. It's so childish it's almost silly. And kinda stupid. And, i really don't understand those types who make your hearts flutter with one glance but yet, are so annoying, you just wana squish them like a bug. Or those other types who just irritate you with their magnetism. There's also those people like _____.

Grr. All these irritating-ness and no solutions.

Through your eyes, i (pretty much) know what your thinking of and i don't like what i see.

Friday, January 9, 2009

Grumpy.

Pfft. Today kinda sucked. :(

Bahhhhh hambug.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Oh. No. Oh. Nonono.

Whyyyyyyyy? Not her lah, pleasssse. Mdm Zarinah is back and teaching 3e4! Teaching me! Again! Can this please be a nightmare I'm about to wake up from? If it is, pinch me asap. I'm gona have to get used to her for so many more years. Meaning, unless something horrible/wonderful happens, she's about to be my teacher (mainly for science) for a total of 4 YEARS. Okay, I'm ready to be pinched.

I've to wake up real early tomorrow! Meet Azrayna by 7.10! And reach school by 7.20! All because of Mr Hafiz who decided to test the student councilors' punctuality and an entire attire check. When he checks you out, it could be scary. He'll scrutinize every inch and pick out the smallest of mistakes. Yikes, good luck Amalina.

Marisa:

Forget black faces. Forget what happened. Forget the rumours. Forget the accusations. Forget, forget,forget. And forgive.

The Human Dramas of School.

Monday, January 5, 2009

I just got home from school and boy, am i tired. School's been okay so far and I'm currently reading Eclipse.

CCA Display day's this Friday and I'm hoping that more people will join drama. It's so sad, the ceasing numbers. It's not that were not 'cause we totally rock, it's just that some people have the annoying perception of acting being lame. The truth is, they say that 'cause they're too shy/gutless to do anything about it. It takes guts to go up in front of an audience and wow them.
So to those with the guts, commitment and the love for acting, come and sign up kay? ;)

I gave myself this resolution: To study an hour a day, everyday. And so far its going great but I've only studied one subject. Let's see if I'll be able to keep it up.

I learned that I'm real good at random thinking. So good, that it's annoying. Like when i want to sleep, thoughts like "Shit, i should've stayed up to watch TV". And during lessons while the teacher's talking, zap! "I don't like his hair". -.- And for example, this paragraph, so the random.

I'm kinda getting used to the fact that I'm not in the same class with Marisa anymore but I'm not getting the hang of being in a new class with some new, unknown people called classmates. Every one's seems that they're still trying to settle down with everything and we've yet to feel the pressure of being in Sec 3. I'm already starting to feel on the weight! Literally. The books are so thick, it's ridiculous that we don't have lockers! A reason why I'm looking forward to the new building.

We've all got a bonding camp next week and I'm not yet sure if I'm looking forward to it. A camp means, a campfire, meaning we need cheers. Shucks, i don't like thinking of cheers. The boys look pretty much happy with their new long pants. Pretty obvious since it looks so ironed, unlike their old shorts. Is it just the pants or have the boys really grown taller and slightly thinner? The magic of fashion :)

I hope Z won't be my chemistry teacher. Oh please, no. I've had enough of her for 2 years. In fact, i really can't stand it. It'll be a challenge to have to put up wit her again.

Eclipse.
'' I love him. Not because he's beautiful or because he's rich. I'd much rather he weren't either one. It would even out the gap just a little bit - because he'd still be the same loving and unselfish and brilliant and decent person I've ever met. Of course i love him. How hard is that to understand? ''