What it's not about

Today when i got my results, they weren't what i expected them to be. They were very low and i'm not happy with them. Re-exam can??

Lousy , sucky marks that can't get me to 3e1. Maybe i should relook at my coices for 3e3. I flunked Freaking maths. I studied, maybe not as much as i could have but those who didn't study got ridiculously high marks! Now i really know what my uncle maens by it's better to cry before than after.

I shouldn't have used the laptop during the exam week. I shouldn't even have gone near them. I really regret not studying hard enough. It cost me my marks and probably my future. I'm not being dramatic or exaggerating. I mean, what if i get into a lousy class then i totally can't study, get more playful, mix with the wrong company? Then what??

I know it's hard for me to push myself. It'll be harder if i get into a playful class. I have to push myself. Focus on one thing - my studies. Soi'm gona start as soon as i get hold of time and some studying materials. If i can't get good/great marks, i can forget about working. If i studied hard, finding a job would be a breeze. Let my parents worry about money. It's my time to study smart. It's time to wake up from fantasies. For now, it has been a little too late.

*Well dones to Marisa Namdee and Faizah Safe.